seeing so many writing about your feelings and thoughts, i too, have an urge to voice out. =)


honestly, i dun feel that im close to any of you guys anymore, i know how much i've allowed myself to drift away from this gang.

some of you might know why, some of you might think its nothing. but honestly the reason im away from you guys, come largely from you guys. and i wish, i seriously wish things wouldn't be the way it is.


cos to me, you guys have always been a part of my life that i never wanted to miss out. i had so much so much with you guys, right from the start, where gatherings are mostly held at my Yew Tee home, at Delon's place, the study room etc etc.


some memories along the way became vague to me.. cos i drifted away. and i only stayed close to those few who's been beside me. i dunno how to communicate with you guys, for a period of time, i only allowed myself to come and go, come and go. or don't turn up at all, cos its really awkward for me. i was hurt, super hurt, and i can only go away.



but however, ultimately, this is still a gang of friends whom i strongly believe it is meant to last, till our marriage, till we have kids in the future. i can picture that. =)


and though i might know little of some of you, i long that i could know more, and i long that i can be honest and share with you guys openly again. you guys refering to EVERYONE. i long to talk to Mak about his dreams and future, about his dog. i long to talk to Lun more abt his life and tuition students and his school, i long to know more abt Chay n Cherry, i long to understand what Den is thinking, hoping that he will open up. i long to share with Peg abt my life, i long to talk to Mui Hwee about boy problems, i long to step into Hui Jie's life more.



i just wish i can be so much more open with you guys! its painful to be just a .... participant. i wish i can put as much as efforts as Mak or Peg or Shiyin who's been doing a lot of organising for us this few years... of cos everybody played a part somewhere, somewhat. everyone is so important in here. yet i feel like im just a participant whereby, with or without me it doesnt make a difference.


this isn't an emo post. hahaha. im just being honest about my thoughts and hope you guys can know. =)


i seriously care about this group of friends, if it seems like i dint, im sorry for the lack of efforts. putting the past aside, i hope i can know each of you once again... =)))


thanks for being part of this gang. thank you everybody. Merry Christmas!


with Love,
yu~