Why?

im very depressed... dun know why... last night's drinking session had actually made me think alot.. i think the saying that "drinking drown your sorrows" is actually quite bullshit.. it made me sadder.. i couldn't help thinking about her, and i dreamt of her even when i slept at shiyin's sofa.. at around 4am, i suddenly woke up and felt like crying.. i know i should move on but i just can't.. i don't understand why did things turn out like that.. nothing hasn't even started, but im already in this so deep.. maybe i should listen to jianwei, if we are fated to be, we will be.. haaiiizz.. i just realised one thing..

"She Qu Hou De Hui Zhen Xi, Mei De Guo De Zhui Zhen Gui."
(You will cherish what you have lost, and you will value what you haven't got.)

maybe this is a blessing in disguise.. with this newfound enlightenment, i may have better luck in relationships next time.. i have all that i want now and i should say i am happy with my acheivements.. i got the A levels grade i want, got the Uni place i want, got to try for Air Force, pending a chance for teaching scholarship, have a bunch of great friends, have a good family and dog, and has everything going my way so far.. sadly, theres just no one to share the happiness with me.. whats the point of driving a BMW, owning a big house and commanding a huge paycheck if the special someone is not there beside you...

haiiizz..

hahahahaha! ok le, i juz fa xie finish le.. now im feeling better!! serious!! this place is good to fa xie.. u guys muz try leh.. i wanna hear peoples' problems leh.. so i wun think about mine.. this is how i overcome problems.. hahahaha.. i do chemistry and bio over and over again, so i have the excuse of not doing maths.. wahahahaha!!

i am desperate! who got nice girls to introduce?? do it quick k? hahaha.. ask if anyone wanna adopt this poor, ugly, little Daffy Duck.. hahaha! my requirements are simple now.. i dun care if she dyes her hair or she ang mo pai.. hahaha.. juz as long as she not lesbian, and she not trans-sexual.. and she loves me as much as i love her can le!! hahaha..

hey, peg, i went home, i din sleep.. hahaha.. i got home, bathed, went breakfast wif my mum n dad, went market wif my mum, walked my dog wif my dad, read the newspaper, went to raffles place to meet my fren, went to limbang to play cs wif jianwei n den, ate dinner wif my mum n dad, bathed, now online awhile.. hahaha.. i din sleep at all! but not very seh liao.. quite ok le.. hahaha.. hey! u can introduce Best to me!! hahaha!! sell my good points to her! hahaha.. oh man... shit, that means i muz go learn to like tom yam.. *shivers* eee.. hahahah..

it was great drinking wif u all.. guess it was abit too boring le, then end up we have to drink so fast.. 2 jugs and a stout in one hour.. tats madness.. and finally i tink i was drunk le! drunk enough to think too much and almost cry.. hahaha.. if u all got stomachache, which most beginner drinkers will have after a "seh" session, go eat white bread with thick layer of buttter/magarine.. it helps.. hahaha! of course, go and shit it out kay.. and drink lots of water!! alcohol makes your body lose water!

haha.. now now now.. DO YOU KNOW...



that..



i am not in the mood to teach you all things today.. hahaha.. BUT! i bet you DIDN'T know taht i met muihwee at cck mrt today before my CS session!! hahaha.. she din recognise me! muihwee, i became handsome le ar? hahaha..

yeah.. tats all folks!
mak