With regards to rong's entry.

I've got alot to say if u all really wanna hear. First, before i go on, i wanna state something clear. It's that... i truly understand that some of u guys are really busy at times & can't make it for any outing or gathering... that, i really understand. It's very wrong to accuse u guys who're rlly busy i know.

HOWEVER... i'm not saying about those who're REALLY busy & can't make it here, but i'm refering to those who CAN actually make it but just DON'T HAVE THE HEART to TRY to make it. (you know who i'm refering to, cause you might be that person.) I really don't know who n i'm not pointing finger here huh... but ya, just that i noe surely there's a few who're lidat.

I'm just VERY angry that u guys always say u're busy with this & that on sat, and that u're always hooked onto that certain busy stuff so e meaning behind it is basically u can't make it on every sat at all when we're always meeting on every sat! Unless u manage to convince me that ur certain stuff is really that IMPORTANT that if u dun go, u might lose ur life or head!

Actually, it's really hard to gather as a big gang & that everyone will make it together at the same time, it's always A can make it but B can't, or B can n A can't... C can D can't, A & C can, B can't, A & D can but C can't. U get what i mean? Yes that's it. So yup, i understand it.

But, in fact, i always think that if u have e heart, it actually wouldn't be difficult for us to meet up at all! Isn't it? Think about it, are u always that busy on saturdays? We all have almost the same routine & lifestyle isn't it... we all work or school every mon-fri, that's why we seldom meet up on weekdays. So weekends' our only time. Besides that, u have got ur family to accompany as well, right? I know... i know all these, dunno how many millions times i've heard it.

If u have a partner, ur family, ur outside buddies but only saturday & sunday, u still can make arrangements to it, isn't it? Furthermore, pls be clear that it's not like this gang is meeting up every single sat. -_-

So now, i really dun understand WHY. Maybe u hv ur own reasons, those which if i'm unable to have any opposite thoughts to it, meaning ur reasons are rlly acceptable n rlly nd our understandings. If that's e case, pls find time to tell me so ehh... i wouldn't want to misunderstand anyone. Btw, i'm saying all these not to offend anyone, but just to share my deep thoughts which have actually been developed since e day i stopped organising outings.

U noe what actually spurs me up? Rong's post, my bday celebration which i was rlly touched to hv most of u all appearing(rlly grateful for that (= ), e resolution i made for e yr 2006 which is to treat all worthy friends with a sincere heart, upon seeing 2 of the gang members having their bdays coming up soon & that i rlly wan to do sth for them, e lost happiness from our chalets (my drunk night when LUN & YU ran to carry a wheelchair!!! When den became my 'hero' of the night, when peg & rong changed for me & saw everything!!! When mak 'tsk' at me in his sleepy mode, and when he got facts clear, wiped my dirty face & hands for me, when jian told me how hard he tried to avoid me puking towards his direction & hoping for me to look into den's direction whenever i puked!!! (what a friend hor... muahahaaa.).

*** not ended***

Where we played 'HU KE CHUAN ZHANG'!!! with lights turned off, and everyone's becoming high or drunk, and drank & drank & drank... with everyone jumping on the 2 beds joined together. (now at the thought of it, i still clearly remember the atmosphere on that night!)

And also the sentosa chalet, when we moved here & there looking for the best spot to sleep in, the best spot where mosquitoes just happily f*** off from us! Where we played on that round stuff on the sea late at night, with all e stupids dares we gave one another & played e game zhong ji mi ma.

Those chevrons sessions on every sat night for that period of time? U all forgot? U see... i was trying to recall on whether there's any more outings & gatherings... but it's all deep inside the memories box in my brain that i dunno what else now. It goes to show that we HAD so many gatherings b4 so who's saying about giving up on our friendship?

U all noe... some gangs like us, with many friends inside, are only on e surface, meaning they can only gather n play... if sth were to happen to anyone of them, e rest will just SIAM. But that will nv happen to us right??? If anything happens to anyone of us (*touchwood* we'll all be safe & sound), e rest of us will sure stay by that someone's side isn't it... even though i may not be very close to a few in this gang like delon, chay... but we talked more than we've ever did during sec sch days!!! It's truly amazing, like just now, i just sms delon asking abt next sat thingy (will mention later on)... i sms delon leh! u think if dun hv this gang, i'll freakingly sms delon ma??? I think i'll nv ever realise delon's actually someone who's rather lame & humourous lo!

And chay... altho he's ... weird sometimes, HAHAHA! But u think i got tok to chay in sec sch de meh... ?!?!! If not for this gang, i wouldn't ever realise chay's a friend who'll stand up for his friends!

So if u're thinking that 'aiya is this rlly a gang not, i'm not even close to a few & without them, i think i can still live lo...' such stuffs, then u think through it again! If u still can't think through, nvm, come to me, i help u. *evil laughs*

Okok e main point is, without this gang, u sure can survive on but maybe u might die a lit earlier la... cuz i've heard b4 that laughing & being on a happy mode often extends ur life span. So without this gang, e most is u'll laugh lesser, be happy lesser, and die earlier lo...

In the past, whenever i sms to organise outings, i'll always say stuffs like "come la, walau very nan de we all meet leh..." or "promise kay, u make urself free la, his/her bday leh... must huh... come leh"... but nw i realised what for? No use at all, i'll never succeed with those phrases if u dun even hv e HEART! Am i right???

So i wun get so long-winded e next time, i'll just sms e event, time, venue, and u decide for urself... chay's right... dun ever ask who's gng through e 3rd party, if u've ever been the one organising, u'll find how f***ing irritaing it is!!!

So ask the person directly!

Talking about this, i'm sure all of u sld noe e conflicts, misunderstandings, whatever u call it to be... existing in this gang.

I REALLY WONDER WHAT THE HELL ARE ALL THESE OCCURING & STILL EXISTING???

We're all 20!!! Slap ur face if u're still being so petty & bearing grudges!

Before u think of the other party's faults, why don't u use the time to think of urs 1st? Who actually started it 1st, what's the reason of the conflict behind it actually? If the reasons are, "i can't lose my face", "he/she misunderstands my meaning & f***ingly say me back now???"... then i see no point in bearing the grudges anymore. I said it... it's MISUNDERSTANDNGS. There're SO many misunderstandings in this world... and if everyone were to get angry or bear grudges over any misunderstanding, wun it be the most stupid thing in this world? (just as stupid as u being caught by the police for stealing bananas outside a fruit stall in the midnight as the bananas can't be kept in store?)

"he/she misunderstands my meaning & f***ingly say me back now???" I know anyone will get angry over such a case, but i dun think anyone will bear grudges over it for so long?

And think about it, did he/she really misunderstand u? Or u just can't put down ur STRONG ego (i hate this the most) and just kept on believing ur own self for everything...

*ps: before continuing, i'm definitely not stating any egs here kay, not refering to any conflicts, but just stating my own thoughts which sometimes happen in our daily lives*

Look at this! The conflicts are f***ingly irritating & affecting everyone's mood in this gang, i can tell u sth very clearly now... and that is, even LUN is giving up!!! He dun dare to voice out so i say it out loud for him! Not to mention him la, even me, i admit that e 2 wks ago, i had the thought of never bothering abt this gang ever again & if anyone were to organise anything, just go if i can make it lo.

In fact, if A can make it, B won't go. B can make it, A won't go... So who does the poor organiser have to call then? Imagine this, let's say if A's gng, so B won't go le right? After the outing, pics will be posted up, B sees it & gets angry & curse saying "damn, it's so much fun then, if only i'm there, because of A la!" Then, the hatred for A increases... e next time rd, if A goes again, B's hatred increase even more... so it'll just increase on, non-stop. If say a big event like chalet is coming up, how is it going to be done then? Who to call now? Sooner or later, if A attends all the outings, B will eventually be out of this gang. Instead of having someone to hate, why dun u try putting down ur ego & be more forgiving?

It's always better to have a friend than to have a foe, as what people always say. If u're more forgiving, and attending all e outings together, sooner or later, misunderstandings are forgotten & forgiven, and that everyone will be friends again! And that, this gang is alive once again! WON'T it be so great? Think about it please... i really wish to see this happening, for ur one action can rlly affect the whole gang's mood. 2 choices. Forgive&forget or Continue to bear grudges,eventually be left out? I never ask you to give in, never ask you to state the person's faults over & over again... but not thinking abt all these, just attend all outings 1st, just try... maybe for e 1st few times, the atmosphere might be a lit weird, but i promise the whole gang will be together to try with u all... this is all i ask for.

I just can't help but wonder what will be like after 5 years. Maybe we're preparing to attend wedding dinner of one of the gang members now? Or maybe someone's giving birth now already, everyone will be god-pa & god-ma? Hahaha... imagine... (=

Almost forgot, i mention about next sat outing which is to celebrate lon's & lun's bdays together, which i believe all of u have got my msg.
Venue: most probably town, if not, lot 1 if u all dun find it boring.
Time: 12 or 1 for lunch, 2-7 for k-box.
Confirmed people till now: (for ur info), i wun allow these people to be absent next sat as u've already promised. (= here goes... DELON, WEILUN, me, siewyu, den.

shiyin.