aRrrrHHH.. finali a moment here, for mi to do some updates instead of just comin in everyday n check out wad u guys have to say~'


first i wanna say how much i kinda miss everybody~~


i think chay's pretty much a joker.. hey hey though i dun reali tok to u nowadays but i enjoy wad u always write in here, n definitely wanna noe wads up with yr life now.


muihwee... tt time at chalet only gets to see u for a while n tok to u for soooooo little!!! tink u're pretty busy with yr uni life, but dun forget us k!!! do miss having the gentle u ard~


rong.. foreva MIA from here. next time i see u online n u dun even bother to check out our blog or write something, U"RE DEAD.



jian.. arr nothing to say to u la, wait til u come out den say~



den.. commando in action.. but i must say u're reali kinda sweet n gentle WHEN u're not angry or wad... i hate it when u shout at ppl. BAhAhaHahA~


Mak.. i'll nv forget the time when i woke up n saw u gently wiping yin's face for her... such a family guy~


lUn.. keke i wun forget how we ran to get that dumb wheelchair n stuff~

n gals... YiN n PeG... wah lao all put yr chio chio pic in here make mi envious... ke ke~






aniwaes.. arrhh i duno wad im sayin or doing right now la~ but... about 17th sept, im sorry but i might not be able to make it.. cos i needa go support my dance mates.. its the FiNaLs at suntec... so.. ya.. sori if i cant be there...




also i wanna say a BIG THANK YOU to den, lun, jian, peg n yin who came down n supported me!!! i reali am touched.. sori ar.. i failed to make it.. but i'l try again next time la~ haiz think about it also makes mi sad~ yada yada yada~'





so much happened to mi lately, if u guys read my blog perhaps u'll have an idea lo~ trying to walk out of it all n focus on my studies for now~




really tired.. tired of so many things ar...





yIn glad that u're able to feel that way about him, but i do agree with wad peg said... aniwaes.. so long u happy can le!!




as for mi... damn myself. i tot.. i said all those words in my blog n can reali give up on him. i mean, its pretty clear enuf that he doesnt even care about mi isnt it?


till this VERY DAY.. he has yet msg mi nor call mi nor wadeva to ask mi if im okie or wad. how would u guys feel la... okie, lets put aside the feelings ive got for him n concentrate on the friendship.


a lot of times i just expect something from him as a fren, cos i noe its impossible to tink that far. i just wish that he's here to support mi in wadeva im doin, to jus wish mi a good luck or jia you like anyone of u here cld have done.


but he cldnt even do that, to tink that he's the so-called closest person to my hearT?! n i fainted... he dint even CARE? not even an sms?!



it just shows.. how important i am to him isnt it?! arrhhh..why... to think that he said he wld protect mi n i stil can rely on him. he said that..



guys.... with their empty promises.. im not saying every guy, BUT certainly to most guys that ivemet.. its always empty promises~




i really am determined to give up on him totally, but yet recently things made mi recalled of him.. n the things we did together... stuff like that.


even this mooncake festival.. i was thinking.. if we're like the past.. i wanna.. plan a surprise for him den we can spend it together.. eat mooncake, play candles n fire sparklers and lantern... i really wish, it was like before.. take a lot of pics to keep as memory...




recently i keep thinking back one of the conversation we had..



about him goin into NS.. cos i tink he said he's going to pEnAnG that time.. n i told him i jus came back from HK n he's goin away.. for sure im goin to miss him de la..


but he tell mi.. if he jus go away for a few days n i cant even wait.. den if he go into NS how..


i said i'll wait for him for sure, i'll wait till he books out every week, continue to stay by his side..



even now.. i still wish that would come true.. i dun wan to leave his life just like that.. i wan to be there.. for him, cos i believed that he would still protect mi~



haiz. but things do change rite?



becos of him.. i got so... lack of energy.. arr.. if can.. help mi stick to my decision to forget about him n let mi get over it.



becos if u guys jus ask mi if thats what i really wan n if that's my final decision, it'll only makes mi waiver more. so just help mi stick to my decision n tell mi wad a jerk he is. haha.



tml's 9/9. its da day where i met dOn... 5 years ago? hahahaha. dOn fOo zHi wEi, my ex bf from NPCC de~


cant believe i remembered. cos this day was so special~ i kept remindin myself to call him on this day, but i got a feelin tt i might forget. so hopefully i wrote dwn here i'l be able to remember!



i think i shall stop here for now... i duno wad else i wanna say animore, jus gets tired of typing le`



ja~


yU~